Light Reads · Writing and Blogging

The irony of writing about not knowing what to write.

Something has been bothering me for the past three months. It’s that I can’t think of anything to write. Usually I write about something that interests me. But these past few months have been nothing but blank sheets. I’ve been lying on my back waiting for inspiration to come leaking out of the cracks on the wall or the ones on my palms. I’ve attempted to write but words keep getting tangled up in the paper lines. For the first time in a long while, I can’t think of anything to write. Or find any reason to.

I would blame writer’s block but really it was only because I wasn’t passionate enough. I really don’t have any good excuse other than I was unmotivated and lazy. I tried though. For countless time I’ve attempted to write. I tried to look for things to write about in the places that I went and the people that I’ve met and even haven’t. But I didn’t exactly know what I wanted to find. I tried to write about the cracks on the wall. Not very interesting. I tried writing about politics. Not exactly my thing. I tried to write about coffee. I prefer drinking it really. And now I regret hating my 2 am thoughts cause my coffee has gone cold and I hate the irony of writing about not knowing what to write.

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Change & Positivity · inspirational · Light Reads · Motivational

My 17th Birthday! and Things To Be Thankful For

 

This has been another grand birthday. It’s not like I threw the hottest party of the year or anything but I did find great things to be grateful for in just my seventeen years of existence. I have to admit, I almost wanted to just give up on life at some point and just get on a hippie van and live on the mountains but I realized that there are actually a lot of things that makes me want to keep going.

I am grateful for being alive. Life is a scary and beautiful thing and though it has been very tough and bitter, it has truly been a great privilege to be alive. For countless times I have questioned the meaning of my existence (welp, there goes the quarter-life existential crisis), searching for my purpose but was fruitless. I found my life completely pointless and I wanted to just give up and become a hippie (also because I want a hippie van heh) but I was wrong. I realized I don’t really have to think and worry about everything all at once. I don’t have to figure everything out. Maybe I will eventually but, really who has figured everything out? Let things happen and I’ll try to figure out what I can along the way. Besides, I’m just seventeen! I have a long way to go. Better embrace my youth while I still can. And by that I mean watch a lot of Disney, build a pillow fortress and eat all the ice cream I can. Cause I strongly believe that my only goal in life is to be genuinely happy, to die happy.

I am grateful for my mind and soul. Of course, you aren’t really alive if you don’t have an independent mind and soul. And it just fascinates me, realizing that I am actually a fully functioning human being I mean I’m not just merely existing you know, I could think and feel. And these things, though could be really scary and beautiful at the same time, these are what molded me into the person that I am right now. And I am confident enough to say that I have a beautiful mind and soul and I am grateful for that.

I am grateful for all the hardships and heartaches. (warning!: read at own risk there’s gonna be cliche metaphors and a lot of em too!) “Happy is the heart that still feels pain,” I couldn’t agree more to this quote. For countless times, I have cried and break. Sometimes I crumble and sometimes I explode. But I’d rather feel pain you see, than feel nothing at all. I’ve learned a lot from pain and these battle scars are my memento. These are my constant reminders that I’ve grown and nourished so much from everything I’ve been through. And I wouldn’t change a single thing about that.

I am grateful for all the people that I have in my life. I’ve been selfish and blind. All that self-loathing? Yeah that was completely pointless. Why? Cause I have all of you awesome people who loves me for the sole reason that, well… I am me. You showed me that I don’t have to be smarter, I don’t have to be prettier just for you guys to accept cause you already all do. My awesome family and friends, and awesome best friends of course. Whether they’ve been with me ever since or just for a short while, whether they stayed or just passed by, whether I met them in real life or just online, no words can express how truly grateful I am for having you guys. And I couldn’t ask for anything more. Thank you for being part of this one hell of a ride. It is truly a privilege!

‘Til next year again!

 

inspirational · Light Reads · Miscellaneous · Things You Should Read

My Greatest Mentor

 

Today is March 24, 2015, and 46 years ago, on this very same day, a very awesome person was born. And luckily enough, that person just so happened to be my PAPA. Every year on his birthday I write him a letter saying how much I love him and how much I appreciate him as a father. This year, I want it to be somehow different so instead I’m going to acknowledge how much of a great mentor he is to me and my sister. Yeah, he could be funny and humorous sometimes but he could also be really deep and poetic. He has taught us a lot; from math to music to life lessons. He’s just the best teacher I’ve ever had and me and my sister wouldn’t grow up to be the person that we are right now if it hadn’t been for my father’s advise and teachings. It’s something we always look up to and rely on in times when we’re clueless and confused. Of course, I have my own choices and views on things but it helped me grow and it molded me to what I am right now. So every time your dad (or even your mom) tells you something and gives you advice, listen or just put into consideration. Try to think about it and trust me, it helps.

Also, I wrote this blog post because I think it’s just sad that a lot of awesome dads (and also moms) out there aren’t shown enough appreciation because they aren’t famous, they aren’t royalty or some kind of superhero but that doesn’t make them less awesome and that definitely doesn’t make them insignificant. So if you have an awesome dad and you love him and you are proud of him, let the world know. Even if it isn’t father’s day or even if isn’t his birthday, let the world know. And more importantly, let him know.

So yeah I don’t wanna make this too long. Just wanted to throw this out there and show off my greatest mentor and tell him how much we love him and that no one could ever replace him. Not even Johnny Depp.

Wishing him a very happy birthday and good health always. Love you Pa! 🙂 ❤

 

Light Reads · Miscellaneous · Things You Should Read

Why I Started a Blog

Hello internet! I’m Jasmin and I’m currently excited about three things right now:

One, SUMMER! Because who isn’t excited about summer? Even Olaf is! (heh, sorry non-frozen fans just had to throw it out there, don’t hate me.) 

Two, I’m gonna be graduating from high school this April! Yay! (does a happy dance)

And three, I’M STARTING MY FIRST REAL BLOG! WOOT WOOT! (well aren’t I just professional) Yes, after long intervals of pondering and planning (and weeks of trying to come up with a perfect blog name) I have finally created a blog. And I thought I was gonna spend another month trying to figure out what my first blog post should be about but then I thought, hey, why not write about why I started a blog? I think it’s the perfect introduction, plus, it might give you ideas on why you should start a blog or inspire you to make one. So without further ado, here are the reasons why I started a blog and why you should probably start yours:

(1) I love to write. Even if I’m not the absolute best at it, writing for me, whether on paper or screen, is just a really great exercise. And for someone like me who is a bit too awkward and shy to speak, writing really helps a lot. It became my voice and I was able to express more thoroughly and more broadly just by writing. So you don’t have to be very professional, you don’t have to use a lot of fancy words. Just be as honest and as precise as you can be. Remember to write from the heart and just have fun.

(2) I want to be heard. Every one is entitled to their own opinions and we all have our own views and I just want a place where I’m free to share my opinions and outlooks even if it means getting criticized. Well we just can’t avoid that. It’s the real world, after all. Good or bad, right or wrong, people will always have something to say, but that’s actually okay. (and that rhymed so give me a cookie)

(3) I want to be involved. The internet is just a massive thing right now. Everything that happens are most likely to go in the internet. Interesting things are happening in the internet and I don’t want to just sit here, ignorant and oblivious.

(4) I want to share. Surely, there are things that you are good at or passionate about and it would be such a waste if you just hide it away in a closet with all the other insignificant things. So why not share them? Again, you don’t exactly have to be a professional. As long as you love what you do and you’re passionate about it and just put your soul into it.

(5) And lastly, to have fun. I mentioned this a lot so do I really need to say more? It doesn’t matter if you become a famous blogger or not. It doesn’t matter if you’re writing for a big audience or a smaller audience or if you’re writing for yourself. At the end of the day, all that really matters is that you love what you’re doing, you’re having fun and you’re happy and content.

So that is just about it (or at least I think so) but yeah, if you feel the same way as I do then you should probably start blogging. I hope you learned a thing or two or I hope I helped you even in the smallest way possible. Happy blogging! 🙂